Een van de centrale dingen voor mij is mensen helpen om hun gevoel of intuïtie te vertrouwen en te volgen. Dit heb ik zelf geleerd tijdens mijn reis in India in 2011. Deze week staat in het teken van intuïtie op mijn Facebook pagina en daarom wil ik dit verhaal met jullie delen. Hieronder een reisblog die ik in 2011 schreef over mijn ervaring bij een vieze oude man in India.
One of the central things for me is helping people to trust and follow their gut and intuition. I learned this myself during my trip to India in 2011. This week is all about intuition on my Facebook page and that is why I want to share this story with you. Below is a travel blog that I wrote in 2011 about my experience with a dirty old man in India.
(Feb 3, 2011) In order to save money, I decided to couch surf in Bangalore, which worked out great. Saravana turned out to be a great host, who even taught me how to make dosas and dropped me off at the bus stop in the middle of the night. Thank you!
The one day I spent in Bangalore was amazing because of the talk that the Dalai Lama held there at that time, perfect timing for me. I couldn’t quite believe that in this big tent with beautiful Buddhist decorations, one of the most amazing men of our time walked in, sat down and spent the next 3 or 4 hours sharing his wisdom, personal issues and most of all his jokes and teasing. So inspiring in a funny and understandable way!
The next day I flew to Delhi, where a guy named Shiva, who came highly recommended by a friend of mine, picked me up from the airport. I was going to couchsurf with him for a few nights, until I could book a train to Rajasthan and figure out my next plans. He then showed me and 3 polish girls some tourist attractions in Delhi, altho more time was spent in his car in traffic than viewing anything worthwhile.
In the morning he had given me an unsolicited palm reading, and when we got to his house late at night he asked to give another one before we went to bed. Only 5-10 minutes, he said. Well, that turned into a much longer ‘healing’ session, where at first he did help me by bringing up some of my personal issues, but then he started to focus more and more on boyfriends and my lack of trusting people. He stated that I was sick, and would make myself sicker and sicker until I would kill myself with my negative thoughts, and said it was located in my tummy. (at this time I had) a digestive disorder, which I had mentioned during the day, so it wasn’t difficult for me to accept that that’s where I wasn’t healthy.
He wanted to remove this illness by touch, which I finally allowed, but unfortunately the conversation kept focusing more and more on sex. During his ‘healing touch’ and massage, he asked me to tell him what my boyfriends used to do to me to please me (‘did he used to lick you?’ ieeuuwww) and asked if i could undo my trousers, and indicated that tantra (reaching higher mental/spiritual state thru sex) was the answer to my illness. This was beneficial and necessary for me to get healthy, and I should trust people more. It was nothing physical, and not for his benefit, but I’d never been with a real man before, who could make me truly satisfied (OMG really?!).
Even tho my friend Alex had told me he trusted this man with his life, all possible alarm bells were going off by now and I told him this was enough, and wouldn’t let it go any further. He finally accepted that ‘I wasn’t ready to get better’, and went to sleep in his own room. Altho the palm reading had been interesting, the last part of this second session made the whole thing feel like a big scam to violate me, and so I packed my bags the same night, and got dropped off the next morning. (added note: As soon as he left, I locked the door so I was safe, even tho I was still in his home.)
Even tho my brain was telling me it should be ok, all possible alarm bells were going off by now
Luckily, the very helpful guy at the train station got me a train ticket to Udaipur, Rajasthan for the same night, so I didn't have to stay in this big city any longer. It was interesting to notice that I actually felt really safe in Delhi now that I was by myself again, even after hearing many scary stories about the metro and train station from Shiva. No stabbing, no grabbing, not even any touts or scammers trying to get me to the wrong tourist booking office!
The main thing I’ve learned from staying in those two big cities is that I should trust my instincts. In Bangalore, I knew Saravana would be safe, even tho I didn’t know him and I was alone staying in a guy’s apartment, and in Delhi, I knew I wanted to leave and did not feel safe.
So that’s the lesson for today kids: trust your gut, not your brain, and don’t let old, dirty, hairy fat men try to screw you!
trust your gut, not your brain, and don’t let old, dirty, hairy fat men try to screw you!
I'm so happy that I was safe and that I learned this amazing lesson, which I now share with my students. This is me very in tune with myself, in the autumn forests of Holland. Wearing beautiful and sustainable gear by Inner Fire.
Ik ben Roos, 34 en ben in 2000 begonnen met yoga. Ik ben opgeleid als Dru Yoga docent en in Vinyasa, Yin en Stoelyoga. Ik geef wekelijkse lessen, organiseer retreats en het Noordwijkse yoga festival en deel mijn kennis over body positivity en lief zijn voor jezelf. Voor meer info, check de 'Contact' tab! Liefs